Originally written last October 21, 2009
9:30pm Wedenesday
It's been a week since I wrote here. So many things happened in a week! Like, I went to the city for three consecutive days. A big deal because I HATE going to the city. Really. Quite unbelievable for I studied there since I was in high school. I AM NOT A CITY GIRL. Alright. Enough of city talk. Things happened. Yes, a lot of happenings of sort.
What is really boggling my mind? Oh gawd. NA (*initials), my college batch mate's boyfriend confessed that he had a crush one me back in high school. What?!! Oh.I noticed him back then but he was a junior. I found him a KID. I was flattered. Mixed feelings. At the same time, I was wondering if he was being honest or he was just playing games with me. I kinda played on, wanted to know the truth.
He told me he would break up with my batch mate for me (they were together for 2 yrs and I'm in a good 4-year relationship). I told him he is TOO LATE because I am engaged. That I'm very sure I love Gabby so much.
If we were in high school, who knows? BUT- today is the present. Present. I'm not fond of dwelling in the past.
I just cant hurt Baby like this just because I want to play a stupid game with someone whom I'm not sure I can trust. What an INDECENT proposal! NA asked if we can have a secret relationship since Gabby is not here (he is on board, working) and he wouldn't find out anyway.
Like, hello?! the idea of infidelity thrilled me. BUT I JUST CAN'T DO IT. I cant indulge myself in such thing. A MORTAL SIN in a relationship as I perceive it. I put myself in my batch mate's and Gabby's shoes- IT WOULD HURT BIG TIME. I know that. I do not want Gabby to do the same thing to me!
What a freakin' major TURN OFF! I pity his girl friend.I'M SURE THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME HE DID THIS TO HIS GF. I'M SURE OF IT. I BELIEVE IN MY INTUITIONS, I CAN FEEL THE VIBES. Goodness. Too late NA, though you are quite cute- I belong to Gabby. He owns me. SEALED. TAKEN.
I kept thinking about it actually and told my best friend about it. Shocking. I didn't see this coming. I won't play silly games.
I was ALMOST tempted, almost gave in. But I just can't do it! I just love Gabby so much that I can't hurt him big time. He doesn't deserve to be fooled. I'm secured with him, we have a wonderful God-centered relationship. I WON'T RUIN IT.
I feel so proud of myself because I didn't gave in, yes, I didn't. My conscience will eat me if ever. I won't let that happen.
*I LOVE GABBY AND I WON'T HURT HIM. THIS EXPERIENCE MADE ME REALIZE THAT I REALLY AND TRULY LOVE HIM.
*I WON'T TRUST ANY OTHER MAN BUT HIM.
*I WILL LOVE HIM MORE AND MORE.
*I will ALWAYS remember our 5 Pillars of Relationship:
LOVE. TRUST. PATIENCE. LOYALTY. FAITH
The Verdict?
I told Gabby about it. I had to tell him. I always let him know , he is my confidante. :)
NA's gf knew about it through a common friend.I don't know what exactly happened but they are still together up to now.
hmm.. intriga ni ka haw.. hai.. na sad ko sa gf.. but good to know na ur strong, though i don't know gabby so well, i hope he will forever treasure u the way you treasure him.. i pray for strength pra cno 2 since indi man pirme hapos ang gna-agyan nyo.. miss you ka..take care..
ReplyDeletehain rai. kilala mo ang girl ah. i dnt knw kng sila pa jpun.. Almost, almost gave in. di lng gd kaya,tsk. well, i love gabby so much lng gd. :) thank you rai. i miss you.. God bless.
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